oh...

so yeah i pretty much suck at blogging. When i came here just now and realized the paltry amount of entries i had it made me realize how awful i am at this.

well not awful, but certainly not wonderful.

especially when i read other blogs and they are just chock full of interesting minutae and i come back here and its a barren wasteland. Sidenote: how do yall with do it? I have an internal running commentary during the day but when i sit down in the evening to wrap up, i gots nothing.

i shouldn't be surprised though, the only time i kept a real journal was when i was dating this dude(i was a youngin mind you) and i kept a detailed acct of all of our interactions. lame.

btw i am sooooo glad to be past that stage.

you know when you agonize over every detail of everything and even minor issues become mountains and life sucks horribly and nobody understands you and omg he kissed me but he probably hates me cuz im not that good a kisser because he's my first kiss and thats probably why he didnt call OMG i'll die of embarrassment if he never calls me again

*blink*

oh wait...that was just me?

well moving on. And, shutup.

so yeah back to the blogging thing...that torrid affair was the only time i kept a clear consistent journal. And by clear i mean i used standard grammar and punctuation, something that i seemed to have lost during the years.

Other than that keeping a journal is something that i WANT to do, but when i sit down to write in it, i get this mental block, and all my thoughts/topics fly right out of my head.

In my creative writing class in HS we were told to keep a journal from from the beginning of the year on up until midterm. Well, every time i sat down to write in that thing, i couldn't come up with idea one, so i procrastinated the heck out of the project until the night before.

Alot of fun it was fudging entries in march to dates in october. I guess i did a pretty good job, i got an A on my project.

Anyway, I've been getting more of this:



Its no fun not being able to sleep at night AND then getting up early and forcing yourself to stay awake during the day. But lately i've been going to bed, falling asleep and STAYING asleep. its a wonderful thing.