DETOX (and other randoms)

Happy new year everyone! Ok, i know im uh... 20 days late, but belated is better than never right? Besides, its still January, which means the year is still new. So, like i said, Happy new year! :-)

I brought in the new year with a detox. My second in sixth months. Around oct of 2009 i did a detox with my homie Mr Synchronicity. That was tough, but at least with that detox, we could eat food (though just fish). This time around i detoxed with my mother and we went the juice only route. I really have no idea why i agreed to that. I totally love juice, and it doesnt get better than freshly made juice, but juice for breakfast lunch AND dinner? No bueno. There's an ecstasy that comes with chewing your food that sipping just can't replace. Still, I was good. No cheating, though i almost had a breakdown passing a McDonalds. Ever pass Mickey D's on an empty stomach?? IT SMELLS LIKE HEAVEN! Forreal. It smells better than grandma's sunday dinner even! On the strenf!

Fortunately I came to my senses. If i was going to cheat, i wasn't going to do it with McDonalds! I'm would go to go to Ruth's Chris at least! ...Okay Okay, chipotle.

Anyway.

We began our journey by drinking some bentonite clay (yum!) which acts as a sponge and attracts toxins out of the intestinal tract. That disgusting part was on Sunday before last. On Monday we started drinking freshly made fruit/veggie juice concoctions. Accompanied by lots of water.

This detox is allegedly kicked off the new year by "purifying." I don't know how pure i feel now that its all over, but i definitely do feel "interesting". I feel lighter in spirit and in body but that could be due to electrolyte loss. lol. Is this what nirvana feels like??? Somebody pass the gatorade please.

Speaking of the New Year, how is everybody on resolutions? If you follow this blog (and its mobius strip style content) you know i don't do resolutions per se. Still, its always good to bring in the new year with renewed focus and intent.(nevermind that you're gonna lose it by the time february comes around. lol)

here are a few things i will continue to focus on this year (and the rest of my life):

1. stop expecting people to read my mind.
2. stop avoidance and procrastination
3. learn to ask for help.
4. Curtail my negative thoughts.
5. stop freaking out about getting older! (this is a hard one. lol)
6. stop being (inwardly) petulant
7. stop making it about me.

See there? I've just listed all my biggest flaws to yall. Don't judge me! I'm naked and i'm ashamed! (pretend you don't see the cellulite mmkay?) I have my mother partially to thank for this list. She is not only my biggest cheerleader, but she also gives it to me raw. (albeit in the most wonderful way possible) we have been hanging out a lot more recently, not only do to our detoxing, but because she took on the role of my chauffeur. (i had a "vehicular incident.") During one of our heart to hearts (remember that TV show?that was hart to hart though...) i was going on and on and being really sorry for myself (bring out the violins), And while she got at me for being so down on myself "Nobody talks about my daughter... not even you!" She also was inspiring. As usual. The dual role of comforter/motivator. Do they hand out tips in the mom handbook?

So what else?

My Ex™ contacted me. Yes, that Ex.™ Thanks to the "miracle" of facebook, he saw that i was a fan of the same person he was. He didn't request me as a friend, but instead sent me a message. After getting over the initial shock of seeing his name in my inbox, im not going to lie, my first inclination was to be cold and calculating to him. I mean, im still smarting over the offhand manner he treated me the last time we talked. I didn't deserve that. But, i'm a lover not a fighter, and i'm no good with grudges. I don't relish being on the outs with anybody. I get mad, but i don't stay mad. A strength and a weakness. I won't fake though, I still cringe at that last phone call before this recent correspondence. Anyway, to make a long story short, he's going to be in town for business at the end of the month. He said he thought about me (duh. of course you thought about me. im the ish!), but since he didn't have my contact info, he put it out of his mind. But seeing my name pop up randomly on a facebook fanpage convinced him it was providence (is that so? lol). A thousand thoughts are running through my head (and i'll spare you them all) but needless to say... this is quite an unexpected development. I have no expectations though. At least that's what im convincing myself. lol. Next weekend should be interesting. I would say I dreamed him in existence, but that dream was over a year ago. Then again, if my dreams have a year turn around time... i should be becoming a billionaire very shortly...

Speaking of next weekend, Next Friday i will be teaching salsa. Yes, you read right. I'm no salsa teacher in the strictest sense of the word, but i've been at it long enough to show amateurs a thing or two. What started out small has turned out pretty big and i will admit to being QUITE nervous. Its a volunteer effort, which takes some of the pressure off (i'd be terrified if people were actually paying for it) but still, im quite anxious. As you can see, next weekend will be a doozy.

While we are on the topic of my "action" packed next weekend... Sunday the 31st is Esperanza Spalding day! As you may or may not know, i am an Esperanza Spalding groupie. Oh yes. Even more so since i've started my Bass lessons. She is one of my muses (yes i have more than one). One of my new bass playing friends and I are going to see her in DE. I've never seen her perform before (in the flesh anyway - i've devoured everything on youtube) so i am major amped. Not to mention she's also going to be performing with Cassandra Wilson in March. This time it will be in Newark NJ, but i am seriously considering going to that too. hat's what groupies do right? lol. (Shout out to the homie Rashad for sharing this info which would have escaped my notice otherwise!)

And finally... i am going to Brazil! for a person that doesn't make vacation plans until last minute (if that) this is huge. Now i have a reason to learn portuguese...and the samba :-)

Esperanza Spalding - She got to you (Where was this song when i needed it?? lol :-/)


I swear i've written this lyric, if not in pen, in heart...
Now, I'm a bit confused
Cos what I felt
I thought was true
Did she barge in
And steal your heart away?
Or did you know
From the first day
I was just someone to play?
If so, damn that's cold