HAGGARD

Well...its looks like i've caught one of those "bugs" folks are always talking about.

Sidenote: Ever notice how when you're sick people always mention the "bug" thats going around?

Person A: "Ugh..i think im getting sick. I have the sniffles and a sore throat"
Person B: "Well you know theres that bug thats going around..."

A nebulous microbe with no distinguishable characteristics save for the fact that it makes you ill. And no matter what the symptoms are, they are always an effect of the "bug". Sneezing a lot? Bug. Vomiting? bug. Fever? Bug. BeeGees? Bug. Weirdo rash? Bug. Hammertoes? Bug.

For the past 48 hours i've been a hostage in my home, my body having been wracked with a mysterious illness. I look a hot mess. Like if amy winehouse and helena bonham carter were able to reproduce, I'd be their tragic offspring. Oh yes. Its that bad folks. And, I feel even worse than I look. I awakened Wednesday morning vomiting and diarrhea-ing something awful. I just knew i was going to burst a blood vessel because i was heaving so bad. And you know how after a while you have vomited everything out of your stomach, so there is nothing left but bile to upchuck? that what i was dealing with. Straight clear foamy bile that hurt like the dickens when being brought up. And the sound. My goodness the sound. It sounded like i was having a baby...out my friggin esophagus! The noises i was making scared me. WHATS worse is that at times i had to both vomit and poopy. Ugh. I'm so gross. I know there was TMI all up and through this paragraph, but yall understand. I hope.

My stomach has been relatively calm for the past 2 hours, so i ventured to the kitchen to make some tea. Hopefully that will stay down. I'm leery of eating anything though. I'm afraid i'll throw it up moments after i swallow it. :/ So now, i'm cautiously sipping tea, blogging, and catching up with my favorite blogs.

Only good thing that'll come out of this is that i'll probably lose 2-3 lbs. Of course it'll be water weight, but still.

On top of all that, i'm dealing with some stuff in my personal life that i'm sure is not helping my immune system fight off the invaders. Stress suppresses the immune system. Or so i've heard. The trouble with having family is that when they get involved w/nonsense, you feel the effects too. On some "no man's an island" steez. Right now one of my fam is dealing with the results of some stupidity on their part, and even though it has nothing to do with me, i'm still buggin over it. Like really buggin. In fact, i'm kinda glad for my illness, because it distracts me from the ridiculousness of it all. What makes it so bad is that my relative walked into this mess. Despite all the warning from everybody. And that fills me with impotent anger. And disgust. I am trying my hardest not to lose respect for this person but its really hard. Really hard. And, i feel sad that it i feel this way. I'm trying to see past that though, and not let my knee jerk feelings get the best of me. Its a struggle though.

Ugh.

This too shall pass. Right?

Anyweez...i'm gonna go and try to eat this fruit cocktail(in heavy syrup) and see if it stays down. I want to hula hoop but i won't push it.